Unhappy and drug dependent. I don’t like this world and I am not happy even though there are beautiful things around me.

Sometimes I see a “strong” chart belonging to a person living a life of despair. I think the problem is that you actually have a lot of hidden power, but you’re afraid to use it. Maybe as a child you were punished for doing something inappropriate for a child or expressing power, and you were punished severely for it. Perhaps you believed that people wouldn’t like you if you came across as a strong character.

I’m looking at your Sun trine Pluto, which usually offers a lot of personal power; Your Aries Sun and Mercury; And Moon sextile Mars. In addition, the North Node (or Moon) of your personal development is surrounded by a powerful Uranus and Mars.

Also, when I look at your MC and sextiling Jupiter with your Neptune, I wonder if your drug dependency is at the point where you can’t get out of it without real intervention. Neptune considers drugs legal and illegal, Jupiter says, “If a little is good, a lot is better,” and the reality will never feel as good as the artificial high. Especially not when the True You is crushed in a box and not allowed to come out.

Moon square Saturn can be very effortful. The Moon reveals your emotional nature, but Saturn sends signals of not being good enough,

However, good Saturn gives us a sense of hard work and self-discipline. Power used for the good of other people makes you a loved person. (I have an old friend whose volunteerism is famous.)

See if you can let your Aries nature out of the box. It wants to do something martial or athletic.

These steps may seem like too much to do, but the universe takes notice when you take small steps to help yourself.