As you see in the enclosed chart, I have a stallium in 1 house – Neptune, Venus, and Sagittarius in the Sun (Ceres and Juno, if counting of asteroids), and mercury in early Capricorn.
I also have a kite formation: Pluto tranged the north node in Libra in the 10th house, the south node of the Moon in Aries in the 4th (also CJ Esteroid Aris), Mars in Leo in 8th, and Neptune in 1.
Jupiter, my chart ruler, has increased in cancer in the 7th house, opposing Mercury – DC ruler – in Capricorn. Saturn sits on the top of the chart 0 ° Virgo, Kanjankt Regulas. (I am not sure that the royal stars are replaced. If not, please ignore)
Other notable combinations:
– Rising Antare on AC
– Elder on DC
– Sun Kanjach Gellactic Center
(And perhaps not important but is individually interpreter)
-A betel nut between Brihaspati and Lilith (although it is slightly wide, seems like a part of Jupiter/mercury opposition cluster, and I think it is especially going to this supernova *soon-Ish *.
– Esteroid lucifer (Light bearer – not devil) exactly on AC (again I don’t know that asteroids are considered seriously here, but I feel very strongly about this particular placement)
For me, it sounds like a chart, perhaps not easy but is full of vision, change and insight. And yet, my life has been marked by the older and often invisible difficulty – emotional neglect, betrayal, separation, displacement, loss, and ignorant feeling, even though I draw attention to others, both positive and negative (Neptune/AC, Pluto/NN?). I take a strong sense of purpose and creativity that has never found a house despite acknowledgment (studied at a prestigious art university, received scholarship, etc.).
Important thing: I am No A person who passes or is afraid. I have taken harsh steps in countries, cultures and languages – repeatedly let the identity go to the identity to carry forward security, goods, and even an independent, more meaningful life. My pain does not come from fear of life. It comes from trying again and again enter Life met only with unforgivable blocks, elimination, or apathy.
Most painful, since childhood I had a deep craving to learn a particular language and go to a specific country. No matter what I do, everything seems to vandalize that journey. Instead, I am trapped in the country at the next door for 18 years – a place where I feel erased, where the environment seems fundamentally inconsistent who I am, and really, there is an invisible harassment that gives me any choice nor does it have to breathe. It looks like a diastopian nightmare. The destination of my soul is beyond the limit, while I am sluggish here.
So I ask: Explains such permanent internal and external obstruction in this chart? Is it regressive? (Jupiter, Saturn, Mercury, Mars and Chiron are all regressive.) Is this mercury -jupiter opposition? Definitely stars? Neptune is rising, and its foggy effect? What do you think of retrograde Mars Square Uranus? And Moon-Pluto protest-I wonder if it is something that I often support others, but thanks, and dynamic the devastating family?
I am currently in a Jupiter returns – but each of my three Jupiter returns has marked the end of a phase and the onset of freshly volatility. None of them brought expansion – only fall. 12 years ago, I got married and spent a home-colored stability in this country, where I am already stuck. Now eagerly, I am seeing some changes in my environment. But looking at the track record, I am taming my Jupitian happy-lucky-lucky optimism.
Now, Saturn and Neptune are crossing Aries, which are making a T-discourse with my mercury-jupiter axis. It seems like an ideal metaphor for my life: expression, vision, purpose … beyond my reach, continuous, deformed, or blocked by collective systems or mental forces.
I do not contact astrology with superstition. I do not hope that it will predict miracle or doom. But i ask it for insight size Of a life. And despite honest efforts, after about half a century, and finally all stress started to catch with my physical health, I wonder: How will it be for the rest of my life?
My inner world is vibrant, thoughtful, creative-full of pain and pain-change-knowledge. But can it really happen? I have written novels, studied philosophy, history, art, tried to live with depth and intentions. Still no matter where I go or what I do, this is a continuous pattern of “wrong places, wrong people, wrong time – and wrong gatekeeper”. There is no leg. Just chronic details.
And I find myself – not out of melodrama, but in exhaustion – asking: If this is all, is it more dignified to finish it than ending it? (I am not in danger, just thoughts) I never thought that I would reach this idea. I wanted to live completely. I wanted to love life. But I think I have never been allowed to start.
If you have read it so far, thank you !!! I will welcome any thoughtful interpretation-especially anything that looks beyond surface-level astrology. I tried it, as you see, but as an amateur, it is difficult to catch the entire size of the chart without losing several details.
